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July 09 DentedIt was a day of discovery for me..
I realised that a raining morning can actually bestow me with a good mood..
It was the day I realised that if you do something with a smile, it is actually easier to go through than doing it with a frown..
It was the day I realised that a pocket full of bitterness gets you nowhere..
It was the day I realised that, not only guys hold on to the 'never sell your friend out' pact, girls do the same thing too..never really know
such conscious existed in girls (sorry for being sexist)..
It was the day I realised that, my love for Gundam is going out of control, this time with big ass ones..not the small ones anymore..
and then....
During my 'good mood' morning, I came to realise that its okay for a girl to do something and say sorry, but if it is the other way
around, 'Tiada Pengampunan, matilah kau!'.
But my mood was good, so I let all my anger and bitterness slide for the day.
Lunch was crap as usual and I was watching this TVB drama in the pantry and I realised..almost 10 fucking years ago..I am SO fucking old!
and then.. It was the day I realised that when your boss ask you something, answer truthfully..cause they know..if you are busy or not.. :D
and then when 'going back' draws closer..
I got itchy and decided to try how is it like skipping a toll...and that would be the last time I am skipping the RM 1 toll..
the fucking jam..F.U.C.K!
It was a day that I realised..Dr. Allison Cameron was wrong..she once said
'You can't get everything right, but you are never gonna get everything wrong'
That's not true..the current adventure I am in..it seems that everything I do is WRONG..
I've never been wrong so many times that it annoys me, sometimes things look OKAY..3/4 of the time it looks BAD,
and just a while ago..things looked like SHIT..
the Cue the Fuck Off is drawing closer and closer...
Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger
Dont you know you might find A better place to play You said that youve never been (sounds like bean in order to rhyme w/seen) But all the things that youve seen They slowly fade away So Ill start a revolution from my bed cuz you said the brains I had went to my head Step outside, summertimes in bloom Stand up beside the fireplace Take that look from off your face You aint ever gonna burn my heart out And so, sally can wait She knows its too late as were walking on by Her soul slides away But dont look back in anger I heard you say Take me to the place where you go Where nobody knows If its not our day Please dont put your life in the hands Of a rock and roll band [and? youll? ] throw it all away Im gonna start a revolution from my bed cuz you said the brains I had went to my head Step outside, cuz summertimes in bloom Stand up beside the fireplace Take that look from off your face cuz you aint ever gonna burn my heart out And so, sally can wait She knows its too late as shes walking on by My soul slides away But dont look back in anger I heard you say So, sally can wait She knows its too late as were walking on by Her soul slides away But dont look back in anger I heard you say So, sally can wait She knows its too late as shes walking on by My soul slides away But dont look back in anger Dont look back in anger I heard you say At least not today. May 05 The Hobby / PassionAnd so we were having this argument over drinks the other night, if you actually get passion as a job..would you really enjoy doing it??
HW "I like my job..I like drawing and designing..but its just a little crazy cause the work hours are quite crappy..what about you JK?? if you
get to do cars for a living?"
JK "I dont know man..if I have to watch and do a car everyday..I think I might get sick of it..its better to have a job AND a passion..cause over
time you might kill it.."
N "Look at footballers..they love it since young and they are doing it for a living"
JK "Football is different..cause the outcome might not be the same ALL the time..we all guys have passion for fucking..but imagine if we are a pornstar?
we would be fucking something for entertainment..and till a certain time we will be like 'man..i am gonna fuck you again!' "
and so the conversation went on..we eventually ended up in Neway..we sang and went crazy
Thus the topic..Hobby / Passion
its fair to say that I have alot of hobbies..but until recently, it was about 7 or 8 months back..when I got this Parkson voucher from my mum..she told
me do something about it before it expires, so i bought this mini Gundam and then brought it to office...my colleague came and told me..hey that is Sima Yi from
Romance of the 3 Kingdom!
I asked him to point out Guan Yu..he did and that was it for me.. :|
I went home..bought it immediately..and decided to continue a hobby that I gave up then..because I had no money..
Collecting Gundam Action Figures
its a fucking expensive hobby...one of it..cost AT LEAST RM 10
the 3 Kingdom collection I already have 6..another 4 is to be bought next month...and well..lets just say the series is YET to end.. :| fuck..
Each cost about RM 18 - 23 (depending on where I buy it)
AHH!!!!!!!!!!!
But its okay..I dont mind spending for something I will look back and say.."hey..it looks good!"
Aerosmith - Sweet Emotions
Sweet emotion You talk about things that nobody cares Youre wearing out things that nobody wears Youre calling my name but you gotta make clear I cant say baby where Ill be in a year Some sweat hog mama with a face like a gent Said my get up and go musta got up and went Well I got good news, shes a real good liar cause the backstage boogie set your pants on fire Sweet emotion Sweet emotion I pulled into town in a police car Your daddy said I took it just a little to far Youre telling me things but your girlfriend lied You cant catch me cause the rabbit gone died Yes it is You stand in the front just a shakin your ass Ill take you backstage, you can drink from my glass I talk about somehting you can sure understand cause a month on the road an Ill be eating from your hand March 16 Bye bye & HelloBye bye
I have finally resigned from CEVA, as happy as I was when I gave my boss the letter, deep down I am a little heavy hearted,
but then again it wasnt really a tough choice for me..
The last job that applied for suddenly called me and said I got the job, dont know how to turn them
down..and so I resigned to pursue interest..
It was flattering what my boss told me when I gave him the letter..Thank you for the opportunity and chance to work with you
in CEVA Freight Holdings..thank you..I am very grateful
Hello
Hello Vizeum Connections, thank you for saying I got the job..now that I got a job I am interested in, I'll give all I have for you all
to show I am worth your selection :)
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One Republic - Stop and Stare
This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us It's time to make our move I'm shakin' off the rust I've got my heart set on anywhere but here I'm staring down myself, counting up the years Steady hands just take the wheel Every glance is killing me Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead Stop and stare I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't be Ohhh Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're here not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need Oh, can you see what I see They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could Steady feet don't fail me now, I'm a run till you can't walk But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down. Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah, I know that everyone get scared But I've become what I can't be Whoa!!! Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're here not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need Oh, you don't need Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah, I know that everyone get scared I've become what I can't be Oh, do you see what I see?  February 26 Fade to BlackFew days before Chinese New Year..
For once in a very long time..I made a good decision, caught a keyword at a very crucial point when I returned from calling a friend
to the table I was sitting on. After I heard that, I enquire..I got my answer and well..its fair to say that I finally get the ending that I
was looking for..Didn't exactly get what I wanted, but hey..at least I learn something, nah wait..I learned ALOT of things..
3 years is a very long time..
its a fucking fucking long time..
but now that its all said and done..
Fade to Black:
Been coughing for 3 weeks already..fucking cunt!, medication is not working but lucky I've got my guitar!
Been strumming I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance, I am not really sure whether I got it right or not..but
it sounds about right in my ears, so I dont really care, I enjoying playing it on my free time. Damn that song is nice!
Been stuck for quite some time about how to start the new story, it gonna be called Fade To Black by the way, its
a song by Metallica (as I promised) and it is also a term called transition in a script :)
When you use Fade to Black at the end of a page, usually its a new act or a new scene.
People have the ability to lose what they have won..gambling, friends, attraction..everything..
I am actually pointing this to alot of people, some might be reading this as well..the secret of winning
to knowing when to stop..
Metallica - Fade To Black
Drifting further every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free Thing was not they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this can't be real Can't stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony Growing darkness taking dawn I was me, but now he's gone No one but me can save myself, but it's too late Now I can't think, think why I should even try Yesterday seems as though it never existed Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye, *Goodbye* JAN
Bye..
Fade to Black:
JAN
I can't believe this is happening
again..
Fade to Black:
JAN
You can punch me if it makes you
feel better..
Fade to Black:
JAN
I will see you..
Fade to Black:
JAN
I'll see you when I see you..
Fade to Black:
February 17 Unless it was never there..Gregory House "Things aren't where we want them to be, just because we want them to be there.."
Dr House said that in the latest episode and I reflected on alot of things after hearing that..it gave me a thought, what if..
alot of things that I thought WAS SO all these years aren't really what they seem to be..
alot of things that I thought WAS all these years aren't really what they seem to be..
alot of things that I thought WAS not true all these years really are true..
And so I drifted too far with my thoughts and decided fuck this shit, I dont wanna be part of all this complicated stuff..
I rather let it be simple so things will never be complicated, I dont wanna be in the middle of that cross fire anymore..
Patty Hewes "Trust no one.."
Arthur Frobisher "I ended up like this because I trusted too many people.."
A nice and hard reality check sometimes is really important in order for someone to wake up..
Was telling a certain someone to say somethings to give another person a reality check..I am not proud of what I did, but
I did what I had to do..
Earlier this month I was knock by reality, of course it hurts but this time I guess I really have to leave what is behind and step
forward one too many times I took 'one step forward and two steps back'
Those that know what I am talking about here..I honestly dont care what you all have to say about THIS :D
Daughtry - Over You
Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down Like an old abandoned house What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath Fell to far, was in way to deep I guess I let you get the best of me Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know I'm slowly getting closure I guess it's really over I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces and spending all of these years Putting my heart back together The day I thought I'd never get through I got over you! You took a hammer to these walls dragged the memories down the hall Packed your bags and walked away There was nothing I could say When you slammed the front door shut A lot of others opened up So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you More than you know I'm slowly getting closure I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces And spending all of these these years Putting my heart back together It's a day I thought I'd never get through I got over you Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And I never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know Well I never saw it coming I should of started running A long long time ago And i never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you More than you, More than you know I'm slowly getting closure I guess it's really over I'm finally getting better Now I'm picking up the pieces and spending all of these years Putting My heart back together Oh Ooooooh! Now I'm putting my heart back together! oh Ooooooooh! Cause I got over you! I got over you! I got over you! It's a day I thought I'd never get through I got over you  @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
16.2.2008
It was the day when I had some balls to walk and do something I actually planned..well it didn't really turned out the
way I thought it will but all said and done I know I can do something I wanna do..just need a little more effort to turn
a plan into something that actually works
It was also the day when I walked away when I feel like it, I am learning to live with or without people I hold dear to..
and then I remembered there was once I received this mail that said 'Type your name and birthday, it will tell you about
your personality'
One of the most distinct one it says 'I am loyal to all my friends and expect the same treatment in return, and when betrayed, I tend
to hold it over and never let go'
I guess that trash mail was right, hahaha..I really don't like getting betrayed by anything or anyone lets just hope it wont happen ;)
People tend to lose what they have won, and the art of winning is to know when to stop..and when to up the bet..
Bon Jovi - These Days
Trying to keep myself out of the rain Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown Wondered if I might end up the same Theres a man out on the corner Singing old songs about change Everybody got their cross to bare, these days She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams To a motel room on the boulevard Guess shes trying to be james dean Shes seen all the disciples and all the wanna bes No one wants to be themselves these days Still theres nothing to hold on to but these days These days - the stars seem out of reach These days - there aint a ladder on these streets These days - are fast, love dont last in this graceless age There aint nobody left but us these days Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes His momma said he was crazy - he said momma Ive got to try Dont you know that all my heroes died And I guess Id rather die than fade away These days - the stars seem out of reach But these days - there aint a ladder on these streets These days are fast, love dont lasts-in this graceless age Even innocence has caught the morning train And there aint nobody left but us these days I know romes still burning Though the times have changed This world keepd turning round and round and round and round These days These days - the stars seem out of reach But these days - there aint a ladder on these streets These days are fast, love dont lasts-in this graceless age Even innocence has caught the morning train And there aint nobody left but us these days These days - the stars seem out of reach These days - there aint a ladder on these streets These days - are fast, nothing lasts There aint no time to waste There aint nobody left to take the blame There aint nobody left but us these days |
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